I’ve been working on putting together a tarot channel for YouTube, but video editing is a real pain in the ass. I’m obviously not the world’s foremost perfectionist, but even after putting a couple of hours into a twenty minute video there remained an unsatisfying majority of ums, chair creaks, & errant sighs.
& while I’m still stoked on eventually getting the channel running, I’m eager to get started with readings.
In the past I’ve mostly done drunk tarot readings with friends on sabbats. But since we are no longer able to meet up, I plan to offer somewhat sober online readings weekly, by the moon cycle. I’m a little behind as the Flower Moon was actually on the 7th, but I’ll try to be a little early next week.
For me, tarot is super fucking fun. Here are all these random symbols, archetypes & you have to try to weave a story out of it. & sometimes that story functions — like myriad other narratives — as a mirror allowing you to see your own situation from another perspective.
It’s fucking brilliant & I love it, but it’s entertainment, it’s storytelling. While I consider myself a fairly intuitive & empathetic human being, I’m nothing special. I claim no particular talent & in general, I know nothing.
I tend to read in a way that emphasizes positive growth & try to offer a couple of different interpretations to make room for different philosophical or spiritual perspectives. However, I’m not interested in writing a novel-length interpretations, so my advice is to take what best suits you & leave the rest behind.
Note: These readings are very freeform & I’m probably only going to go back through & edit as needed, so if you see a typo or a sentence that does not make sense please let me know. Since I tend to ramble, I will include a TLDR version at the end.
I’ve organized the readings by zodiac element this time around — simply because it left me with four clean reading options. The elements are: Fire (Aries, Leo, Sagitarius); Earth (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn); Air (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius); and Water (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces).
If you’re anti-astrology, you are welcome to just pick a pile & roll with it. Or you can select the reading for your rising or moon sign if you’re feeling that more at the moment.
Really, it doesn’t matter. We’re just going to find a story in the cards, have a chat about it, & see if it’s relevant or maybe just laugh at my complete inability to even begin to thread the needle.
Fire (Aries, Leo, Sagitarius)
The cards I drew were:
- Neptune (21) from the Barbieri Zodiac Oracle
- Full Moon in Capricorn, “The end of a tough cycle approaches,” from the Moonology Oracle
- Nine of Cups reversed, The High Priestess (2) reversed, and the Two of Pentacles from The Crow Tarot
- “True healing occurs when I give myself permission to feel whatever feelings live below the triggers.” The Universe Has your Back Oracle
The reading starts with the Neptune card. Neptune is linked to the sea (obv) & water energy (representative of emotions & intuitive energy), or could refer to embodying or dealing with behaviors that fit the watery archetypes of Cancer (exaltation) or Pisces (ruler). It can also represent the utilization of intuitive abilities, a connection with the greater flow of the universe, imagination, creativity, dreams, & fantasies.
There’s a few interesting things about starting this spread with the Neptune card.
With the second card talking about a full moon in Capricorn (considered Neptune’s astrological fall) there is indication of a specific tension that has initiated growth within the querent. Based on Neptune’s domain, it’s possible that we’re looking at a creative block, or even some kind of spiritual struggle or awakening (especially with the High Priestess later in the spread). Regardless, with the full moon we’re looking at symbolic culmination, the natural conclusion of the matter. & as we near the end of a major conflict or hard time in our lives, we have a huge opportunity to grow.
I’m going to skip over the Nine of Cups for a moment & go directly to The High Priestess. The High Priestess represents enlightenment, intuition, & connection to the universe or the divine. Even if you’re not a particularly spiritual person, there is plenty to read into this archetype — she can represent wild wisdom, the kind that comes from contemplating the nature of the universe & our connection to it; she can represent the connection between the artist & the art; she can represent a literal person acting as a conduit for art or deep learning — a teacher, a muse.
Reading reversals is a little tricky, arguably we could be looking at the card’s shadow attributes, at a warning, at a lesser interpretation of the card’s light attributes. So readers look to the cards around it for clues.
So let’s go back to the Nine of Cups, which is also in reverse. The Nine of Cups is often called “the wish card.” Upright, the card indicates a positive period of wish-fulfillment & enjoyment.
So, let’s look at the two major possibilities indicated by the Neptune & High Priestess energies & I’ll tell you what I’m feeling.
First, we have the individual struggling to heal spiritually or mentally. The querent may be dealing with heavy emotional baggage that has caused them to rethink the foundational ideas of their existence — who they are and/or what they believe about the nature of their existence & connection with the universe. In this case, I believe that The High Priestess in reverse is a gentle reminder that it’s okay to ask for help when you’re struggling with something heavy. Regardless if it’s a friend, a religious leader, or a professional therapist, there are people out there that can help you feel connected. Paired with the Nine of Cups in reverse, I feel like there’s a huge element of trusting your intuition & allowing yourself to realize your potential.
The other major possibility is an individual with a creative block. In this case, I feel like it’s important that we trust the process & allow ourselves to become inspired. It’s also an invitation to feel the heavy things & work through them, but not allow them to stifle or block our connection to our creative center. There are so many ways to constructively approach this: have a conversation with someone on the same page, or indulge in art that inspires you to make your own. With grief in particular, I have a practice of not bringing those feelings into my art at all for months, allowing myself to time to unpack everything before I try to make things from particularly painful feelings. Taking into account the Nine of Cups in reverse, I also see a warning not to fall into complacency or dissatisfaction. Do not allow the block or the feelings causing it to keep you stagnant — create new goals, connect with art or other artists, whatever you do keep moving.
With both situations there’s a common thread — the feeling that you are right on the edge of something but not quite there. There’s the saying “fake it till you make it” which seems a little fucky, a little inauthentic, but another way of looking at it is “living as if.” Live as if your dreams are just about to come true, the shift in mindset allows you a certainty, a failsafe. You can face anything, work through anything if you truly believe you are right on the precipice of breakthrough.
& then we have the Two of Pentacles upright. This card talks about balance, thinking on your feet, juggling multiple priorities, & overall learning how to make life work through the push & pull of daily tasks. If we look at the card in context of the Full Moon in Capricorn card, I feel like the end of the tough situation begins once you begin to find that balance in your life — whether its the balance between introspection & connection or inspiration & creation.
The final card sums it up: “True healing occurs when I give myself permission to feel whatever feelings live below the triggers.” This ties back into that High Priestess energy, find the connections to other people, to the universe as a whole, that live underneath the pain. Once you are plugged in it’s easier to heal. It’s easier to heal, to work through your pain, as you connect with others directly or through your art.
TLDR: You are learning to strike a balance between introspection & connection, inspiration & creation. Soon you will understand how to effectively work through the emotional & creative blocks that have ensnared you. Connect with your knowing & continue to move forward. Reach out, you may be surprised who would gladly take your hand.
Earth (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn)
The cards I drew were:
- Jupiter (18) from the Barbieri Zodiac Oracle
- New moon in Leo, “Confidence is your key to success,” from the Moonology Oracle
- Knight of Cups, Eight of Wands from The Crow Tarot
- “In every moment the universe is conspiring to bring me toward right-minded thinking and the energy of love.” The Universe Has your Back Oracle
Where the fire reading felt like a lot to unpack, this one is very straightforward. First, I do want to note that I only had two tarot cards. I pulled everything while meditating earlier in the day & ended up working on some other projects for several hours before I was able to come back to the cards. When I looked at the spread I decided it was pretty clear as it stood.
Let’s look first at Jupiter. Jupiter symbolizes expansion, luck, confidence & optimism. Its astrological ruler is Sagittarius & exaltation is Cancer. So the archetypes here are intellectual/creative development (Sagittarius) & emotional evolution (Cancer). The querent is likely in a good place to make great personal strides in both worldly & internal or esoteric knowledge.
This feeling is doubled by the New Moon in Leo card. Leo is the arch showman archetype, the actor or actress, the irrepressible personality that cannot be held down by the woes of the world. The new moon is a fresh start, the beginning of a new phase on the heels of the close of the last — meaning you are bringing with you a fresh knowing, an understanding of what comes next, what your possible goals may be.
Interestingly enough the fire/water combination of Jupiter repeat in the tarot draw, with cards of movement in water energy (Knight of Cups) & fire energy (Eight of Wands).
The Knight of Cups has a particularly romantic feel about him, but he is also tapped into his dreams, emotions, & intuition. In fact, he is lead by that connection.
The Eight of Wands indicates swift movement & sometimes travel (though unlikely in our current situation). Combined with the Knight of Cups, it reads as an indication that any movement forward that comes from an authentic place is going to be answered swiftly.
Generally, this spread is saying: you’ve got this. If you’ve doubted the wisdom of chasing your crazy dream or declaring your love for someone, don’t. Give yourself a fresh start & start plotting the steps toward your goals & be ready to move forward. As long as you move forward in authenticity, in love, there is no reason to remain still.
The thing about it is, the worst thing that can happen in any scenario is to fail or get a “no.” & that isn’t the end of the world but an opportunity to try something different. Be confident in your abilities, pay attention to the world around you, & adjust your expectations & goals as needed.
Finally, we have an oracle card saying directly: “In every moment the universe is conspiring to bring me toward right-minded thinking and the energy of love.” It doesn’t matter if you believe in any sort of divinity, the more you allow yourself to be excited & optimistic with your goals the more likely you are to see opportunities that can put you where you want to be.
TLDR: Believe in yourself & move with a full-heart toward the things you truly desire. Be excited, be confident, don’t give in to negative self-talk. Move with a clear goal in mind & be ready to answer the opportunities that follow. Even a failure is a chance to learn & adjust your goals. You’ve got this!
Air (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius)
The cards I drew were:
- Water (24) from the Barbieri Zodiac Oracle
- First quarter moon, “Your commitment is being tested,” from the Moonology Oracle
- Judgement (20) reversed, Three of Swords reversed, Ace of Swords from The Crow Tarot
- “I create mindful moments throughout the day reminding myself that I am love and miracles are natural.” The Universe Has your Back Oracle
This spread leads with the Water card. Water energy is emotional, connective, & cleansing. Water encourages healing & renewal.
Next we have the First Quarter Moon, which says “Your commitment is being tested.” The first quarter is representative of a time of make-or-break energy — an opportunity to breakthrough before the culmination of the full moon energy. In combination with the water oracle card, the feeling I get is to make sure you are doing the work necessary to step into where you want to be.
This spread is very much in the middle of something, especially in comparison to the previous two. There is a lot of tension here.
Judgement in reversed indicates an sense of doubt or stagnation or just missing the point. Another interpretation is that perhaps the querent is allowing themselves to be held back by doubt or uncertainty. & Judgement is a major arcana card, a card that speaks of self evaluation & clarity. Again, are you sure you’ve done the work? Make sure that you are moving forward in certainty.
Then we have the Three of Swords in reverse. The Three of Swords is a card of heartbreak & mental pain. Taking the reversals into consideration it gives us a bit of a hint into what the querent is being tested on, being asked to work on — grief, pain, self-doubt.
Reversals can be interpreted several ways, but combined with the Water & First Quarter Moon cards it comes across clearly that the querent is being asked to release their doubt, hurt, & fear & step into their truth.
Which is solidified by the Ace of Swords. The Ace represents standing in truth, cutting away illusion, & nurturing new communication. & when you apply the honest air energy of Swords with the emotional authenticity of the Water card, the result is likely to be groundbreaking.
There is also a sense that it is vital not to waver internally at this point. You are doing the work & you need to complete it. There is no room for doubt or negative self-talk. Practice sitting with yourself & allowing yourself to hear & feel your internal critiques momentarily before releasing them. Do not allow negativity to hamper your motion forward.
& then we have the oracle card: “I create mindful moments throughout the day reminding myself that I am love and miracles are natural.” If the practice of acknowledging your negative feelings is too heavy you also have the option of simply shutting them down from the get-go.
If you are sure that you are coming from the right place in what you do, there is no reason to doubt it. It doesn’t matter if someone doesn’t like it or if you’re shouting into the void (hello), do what you love & stand by it.
TLDR: You are on the precipice of breakthrough. There is a danger of giving in to self-doubt & negative self-talk — work through these urges practically & mindfully. Do not allow yourself to fall back into old habits. Stand in the truth, love what you do, & stick with it.
Water (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces)
The cards I drew were:
- Cancer (4) from the Barbieri Zodiac Oracle
- Full Moon in Scorpio, “It’s time to release negativity,” from the Moonology Oracle
- Page of Pentacles reversed, Page of Wands reversed, King of Cups from The Crow Tarot
- “When I lean on the faith of the universe, peace becomes real.” The Universe Has your Back Oracle
This spread starts with the Cancer oracle card. The Cancerian archetype is that of leading with emotions, inviting the querent to consider the motivations behind their emotions & develop a keen understanding of why they feel the way they do.
When we look to the Moonology card, we have another full moon — a cumulative energy — advising the querent to release negativity. Another water type, the Scorpio archetype is that of intense, deep, secretive, & sometimes manipulative emotions. Since we’re dealing with the full moon energy, it feels like this is a process the querent is currently undergoing whether they realize it or not.
With the next two card being reversed pages (the youngest of the court), it’s possible that the negative belief or idea is long held, perhaps even stemming back to childhood.
The Page of Pentacles particularly points to learning — or rather the lack thereof, in reverse. On a very face value reading, it could mean that you have missed opportunities in your life because you refused to learn from your past, or got the wrong idea & clung to it.
Misconstruing a situation is entirely common & a lot of people tend to be more critical of themselves than others. For many years, I held onto a particular memory from high school as an example of why I cannot deal with large crowds of people — I allowed this memory to reinforce phobias & anxieties. & it wasn’t until at least a decade later when I gained the ability to look back & examine the larger context of the interaction, finding several problematic aspects I’d originally missed. Though I’ve released a lot of the original anxiety & pain around that memory, I still have problems with public speaking.
That is where the Page of Wands in reverse come in. The Page of Wands upright is all movement, all energy, & no fear. In reverse, the page reminds you to be patient, to take a moment before you jump into a new venture.
The final tarot card is the King of Cups. This is the most emotionally solid king of the tarot. He is in control of his emotions & deals with them in a healthy manner. This is a card of emotional mastery. The king embodies that cumulative energy of release indicated in the Moonology oracle.
Overall, the spread feels very much like the querent is on the precipice of something not just big, but foundational. This isn’t just a coping method, but healing — this is digging out the roots of the feelings that consistently undermine the forward trajectory of the querent.
With water energy comes a lot of intuitive knowing, so when I look at this spread, I have every reason to believe that the querent is already doing the work, albeit with some sense of hastiness or incomplete understanding. My best advice when digging through something like this is to write it all out. You don’t have to make it artistic, you don’t have to worry about grammar or punctuation or editing, just write everything you remember & all the negative feelings that you attach to it.
In my experience, getting my feelings out on the paper & reading it is enough to encourage me to let it go. Often the things I twist myself up over are rather insignificant, though I may not realize it until I see it in front of me. However, if that alone doesn’t work, another exercise you could try is arguing with the negative points, exploring reasons why your initial impressions are false.
There are so many reasons why people misread things in the moment, give yourself a chance to reconsider & release any pain you may be holding onto.
The final oracle card reads: “When I lean on the faith of the universe, peace becomes real.” The only faith required here is the faith that you an be wrong, you can misconstrue something, that you sometimes the best outcome of something is for you to find something constructive to learn from it. Lean into that understanding, that knowing & know that every day is another chance to learn, then go for it.
TLDR: You are working through some heavy emotions, but it’s important to take your time & really get to the root of the problem. Don’t rush into the process & miss out on the details as you release negativity. Truly understanding the root of your emotions isn’t just another coping mechanism but a stable practice that will serve you in the future.